Ok so school starts in 5 daiz. Im not ready & i never will be. I dont wanna go back & this isn't the little kid iwantsummer2last4everihateschool kinda thing. Its the imasophmoreonly2yearsleftidontwannagrowup kinda thing. I hate the stresses of highschool & i kno that im being immature, but thats the issue, im 2 immature 4 highschool i still have the mind of a middle schooler. Everything is soooo messed up in my head right now. Idk who my friends are, if im w/ the right guy, or i dont even kno if i like my parents. I kno they are doing wut the r possta b doing but i dont like it. Like a little kid but im more mature than a little kid cuz i realize that they do the things they do cuz they want me 2 b a good person in the end but i dont care. Im stupid i kno. But ya. Im pissed about my scedule;; i cant even spell scechdule & that is sad.

AAHH i wanna die!

EEhh....ok im haven sum guy trubbles right now.

Ive found this amaziiiiing guy. Hes everything 2 me & i dated him b4 & lost him. It really really sux cuz i would do nething 2 b w/ him agen. His best friend says he wants me back but wen i talk 2 him he denys it. I try & pretend i dont care but deep inside it really really really hurts. I kno wuts going on & its just sumthing i gotta get usta. Its just that i usta b the ugly fat girl w/ big boobs but now im maturing & ive become a little slimmer. Yes i am a VERY developed girl & i kno alotta guys only care about that & i stere clear of them, but wut is going on is guys like me now & its weird. It gets me all excited & all these guys i didnt even knew that i existed are hitting on me & i love it so it gets me all riled up & i do stuff i regret. Thats wut happened in this case & i wish i didnt do wut i did. *sigh*

thats problem # 1. but theres more

I met this other guy & hes funny, smart, cute, daring, exciting, everything i like except 4 one thing. He only cares about sex. He'll be all nice 2 me & hold me in his arms & kiss me but he alwaiz wants more. Wen i say no he gets all mad & it sux cuz i like just being w/ him & kissing him & sumtimes i go farther (u prolly didnt wanna kno that but i hadda say it) but now that he knos that sumtimes i will he alwaiz wants 2. I kno wut i should do but...i really like him.

ok so thats #2

Now theres the fact of my actual bf. Five words: I never talk to him. End of story!

So those are my guy issues. Any1 wanna help?

Ok sooooooo Justin cheated on me....we lasted 1 month n 12 dayz.....welllll

I metta new guy @ SHINE....his name is Jamarr n i am now going out w/ him! YAY!