Friday, March 23, 2007

Stupid Boys, I hate love.

Does this sound bitchy? Lemme kno.

ii luv u more x3: hey
Ygomaster1990: yo
ii luv u more x3: wuts up?
Ygomaster1990: nothin much youz?
ii luv u more x3: nothing. im soooo excited. my sister & dad are coming home 2day
Ygomaster1990: oh
ii luv u more x3: wuts ur problem?
Ygomaster1990: nothin
ii luv u more x3: welllllll ur not very talkative
Ygomaster1990: i know
ii luv u more x3: well w/ me ur usually more talkative than this. so sumthings up. so spill it
Ygomaster1990: I am in a bad mood, kinda
ii luv u more x3: y wut happened?
Ygomaster1990: nothin
ii luv u more x3: um ok well im in an amazing mood & i dont want ne1 ruining it sooo either u can change it or im sorry i dont wanna talk 2 u. cuz i havent been this happy in 4ever. & usually i wouldnt tell u i dont wanna talk 2 u cuz i love you but i am sooo happy right now so sorry

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Hey Hey You You I dont Like Your Girlfriend.

Ok so on the discharge forms it says for helpful tips for my mom: Dont allow guns in the house. My mom & i laugh @ that, cuz why the hell would we have a gun in our house? Well im WISHING for a gun right now.

Ok so like Erika says it is selfish. I know, & talking to her right now probably wouldnt help. I do need comfort right now. I do need someone to say come here Morgan & to hold me. I have self-strength thats why im not getting up from this chair & doing something. Im progressing. But My problem right now is that i NEED to know that someone cares. I need someone to hug & kiss me & say to me. "I care" && show it.

Right now there are people that say ya i care. But no. No one really does. People pretend to but no one really does. My mom says shes doing everything she can. No she isnt. If she was she would make sure she had full costidy of me. My dad takes me the totally wrong way. One person says they care about me buuuuut she went & told a secret i told her NOT to tell. & then another person says she cares about me & loves me but shes too popular & wont even talk to me unless we are in Algebra.

AAHH

So to get my mind off of that shit ill tell ya about my days.

Yesterday i didnt do nething @ all.
Erika & I did talk alot though & got alot out which was good. Im pretty sure that you Erika are the only one that reads this lmao.

Today i woke up @ 12 & checked the phone. NO CALL ha ha ha Erika. You didnt call me. lol && then I called my mom cuz we had no food. So she took me shopping & we went for a ride & my mom said i was doing alot better with my suicidal thoughts && i was like haha ur not me. && i mailed my letter 2 Mrs. Ronsman. && i got 2 drive a little bit on small streets. We went shopping. && then i came home && typed this. && my daddy just called & i talked 2 him 4 a while then i called my tay-tay pie & talked 2 her & my brooo. =] i ♥ those to so much! Later tonight i am going 2 my aunts for dinner. =]

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Life isnt about waiting for the storm to pass. Its about dancing in the rain.

I took that litterally today. =]

I hate to brag but DAMN im cute!

Pretend to be happy day [&& others]

Mmk sooo to start out.
Morgan Loves Jamarr but will not date him
mmhm

Anyways

So Spring Break so far

Friday night i went 2 Highschool Musical with Alyssa, Keri, Karli, Taylor, Syd, AC & Troy. OMFG it was the best. The singers sucked but me & Karli sang 2 all the songs & Mr. Blair was in it so me tay alys & kar all screamed Pangea Man @ a quiet time. && then i was telling the girls about how we sed "Before DC" everytime we did everything when we went to DC so they are all stuck on it. So then all 3 girls slept over & AC brought us home & then Troy stayed @ our house. Then we got all 6 of us girls troy & my mom in my moms 5 seater car & went 2 Kwik Trip 4 Ice cream in our PJ's & Hunter was there. OMFG that was scary so i was sitting in the car & i saw him so i ran in 2 tell Troy that Hunter was a big bully from SJB & troy goes oh ok. & then i ran out lol Then us girls stayed up allllllllllllllllllllllllllll night.

Saturday we sed bye 2 the girls & i went back to bed til 4 then got ready for work & then went 2 babysit my sissy. We had fun =] & i got home early. =]

Sunday i went to church @ 10 & then got home went to bed til 3 got up went on the puter for like 5 seconds & then went 2 MI w/ the sibs & mom. Dropped them off & gotta Shamrock Shake. yummmmmmmy. && then my mom & i didnt really talk on the way back. Then i got 2 dads thinking we would spend time 2gether but didnt really. we watched CSI & then i tooka shower & went 2 bed @ 9:30.

Monday i woke up @ 8:30 cuz i had a Dr. @ 10 && dad draaaaaaaaaaged me outta bed. litterly. & draaaaaaaaaaaged me in2 his room 2 help him pack 4 DC wen i was 1/2 asleep. He wanted 2 make sure nothing was 2 dorky. lol he failed lol. he hassa phanny pack. Then @ around 8:40ish lol i started getting ready & it took me until 9:45 to get ready & then i gotta DRIVE MY car 2 my mommy's & then we went to my apt. After my apt. i called Tay & asked her if she wanted 2 come w/ me & Casey to the mall but she sed no cuz she was being crabby && cuz she had crap to do b4 she went 2 DC. So then me & Casey went 2 the mall & just hung out til about 2ish. Then i called my daddy 2 come get us. So then my daddy came got us & then took Casey home && then went 2 daddy's house 2 get ready 4 them 2 leave. Then went 2 SJB & i was a mess. I love Drew tho. Hes amazing. =] && I love Becky. She amazing 2. =] && dad. lol they kept me company & then my real dad kicked me outta the commons. that pissed me off. && then he apolojized cuz he forgot about why i was in the commons in the first place. Then i the deacon blessed them & i told Tay-Tay Pie i love her & i hugged dad & i started crying & Taylor hit me. lol im sensitive wut can i say? Then i took pics & then Mary Graycerek took me home & im not goina bring that up. && i sat @ home & it was boring lol. I was sitting on the Computer & my mom goes, "Its Pretend to be happy day" & i go, "You noticed?"

Today i hadda diff Dr apt @ 10:45 & he gave me new meds. didnt take me off ne other stuff & sooo all my mixes of meds made me sick so i was puking all day. =[ So i slept & puked & now im SUPERMORGAN =]

That would be my Spring Break so far.

Monday, March 19, 2007

AAHHH
life sucks

Erika this is to you:
Im sorry dear 4 being a whore i really am, but ive changed alot since Logen. You are amazing beyond belief && i hate you being mad @ me. You are my world. People say im obessed w/ you but you know what, maybe i am, but thats because im scare of losing you. Now that i almost have lost you im a mess. Ya today i started crying when i saw you. I couldnt handle it. Im stupid & im not strong, but i cried alot. I tried 2 avoid you the best i could so i wouldnt start crying but my dad just didnt get it & made me do things i didnt wanna do thats why i kept crying. Anyways, i miss you so much. If we werent mad @ eachother we coulda had fun @ St. John's. You woulda jumped outta the pimpmobile & i woulda ran up to you & hugged you. This was the first time we saw eachother since January 7. Almost 3 months.....it was sad that i couldnt hug you. Im sorry Erika. I really truly am. Please forgive me. Please babe. I love you so much & that will never ever change.

Saturday, February 03, 2007

Ok im goina do wut erika did

Name the ppl

&& wuts going on:

Erika:
Most amazing girl ever
Havent seen her in forever
She hassa new bf
Thats why

Wally:
We are getting "close" very slowly
He's a maaajor cutie
&& totally my type
Erika says 2 be careful
So i will ;-)

Garrett:
Ugh. 3 words. I Hate Him

Logen:
He he my "buddy"

Tyler:
His gf is pregnant
& hes an ass about it

Kyle:
I finally told him
Who my real personality is
He told me he loved me
&& i love him 2

Eric "V":
I promised 2 keep our convos
2 myself.
Lets just say.
I love him
but not in the way ur all thinking.
As in a friend
trust-worthy way.
Ya i get it u dont havta

Emily:
I love her
She gets me guys
But wen she has bad days she does things
things she regrets
but shes an overall nice person
so i love her 4 it.

Kayla:
God do i love this girl
She is there 4 me
every second of every day
No one has ever been there 4 me that much
Godd do i love her
&& she is so funny also.

Tara:
He he. No one really knos about her
but i do. obviously.
Shes a sweetheart.
I miss Charlie 2.
Even tho i never met him
Ugh i get shivers thinking about it.
I love tara
Stayen up til like 2 am
talking about everything under the sun
4 nights in a row
thru tons of tears
&
lots of smiles
there til the end
i love her

****Ok so now im like crying. I gotta let u all know exactly how im feeling. I got taken home by the cops 2day *&* i gotta go 2 court Tuesday after school. *sigh* but i really really really feel like committing suicide. like badly. My family just sucks. My life, my guy situation. everything. I guess u cant really see it here but it does suck****

Last & def not least cuz i was saving him 4 last.

Casey:
Most amazing guy ive ever met
He is so sweet
Like a big teddy bear.
I love him 2 death
Hes soooooo amazing.
Hes there wen i need him 2 b
& not wen i need time alone.
*sigh*
I love him soooooo much.

So ya....thats my ppl.

w/e.

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

mmmmk

wutta vacation.

Im only doing vacation.

Kk here it goes.

Friday after school: Went over 2 my aunts house & jumped on Aaron 2 wake him up. Then we took random stupid pictures. Then Taylor got there & of course it was a huge deal. So we all went & saw her cuz we all love her so much. =] Then we 8 pizza & ice cream & opened presents. Then me & Aaron went outside 4 a little bit & just talked. Then my mom is like Morgan time 2 go so i was really sad but then Aaron's like just sleep over. So i did. I slept on the floor next 2 him & we talked til 5 am & he hadda get up @ 5:30 ha ha. && Xander was sick. I told him 2 come lay w/ me & he sed he was 2 sick. =[ poor baby.

Saturday:
I went 2 church w/ my dad & then went & hung out w/ him, Kathy & Kylie 4 the night. We watched the Davinci Code. fun fun fun

Sunday:
Pretty much slept all day. Was really upset the whole day. Opened presents from my mom. Then i started going out w/ Jamarr later that night.

Monday:
Woke up 2 my brother & sister jumping on me. Went downstairs & opened santa gifts & then all of the sudden the stove was smoking & i was like, "Um mom is that possta happen?" & she opened up the stove & sed, "shit" so i assumed not. lol. wutta x-mas memory =] we went 2 dads & opened all those gifts. i gotta digital camera from santa =] =] best present ever! then we 8 breakfast & i made a cake. After that Kathy & Kylie came over & we hung out w/ them 4 a while but then Kylie hadda go 2 her dads. So Kathy dropped her off & came back. So we hung out w/ her more. She opened her x-mas & birthday presents. i wanted them lol. it was over a good x-mas. Then we watched Law & Order til like 2 am lol.

Tuesday:
Slept til 12:30. Got up & went 2 Fr. Greg's funeral & then came home 8 pizza & watched, "The Breakup" the end. lol

Wednesday:
I was my dads personal slave cuz i did sumthing i shouldnt have. haha oops. then went 4 a walk w/ tay syd & Kylie 2 the cemetary. fun fun. after that we went 2 the UWGB basketball game. omg. i love my sisters so much.

Thursday:
cleaned & was on the computer;; then went & spent some quality time w/ my littlest sisters =]

Friday:
computer all day made UP not OUT;; UP w/ erika & went out 2 dinner & saw Molly

Saturday:

ya i dont wanna finish this lol. =]

Sunday, October 29, 2006

Ill start w/ Taylor's birthday

[Friday]
School was fun, i love Mr. Sorenson i really do. @ night of course i hung out w/ the 13 year olds. We played games & then my boyfriend called & i talked 2 him 4 like ever. OMG was i happy. We talked & i was sitting by the fire by myself. Then i just laid on the driveway & thought about stuff.

[Saturday]
Woke up @ around 11:30. Made myself chocolate chip pancakes & then went back 2 bed. Woke up @ like 3 & went on the computer 4 a loooong while. Then i went in2 my dad's room & watched like 4 hours of Law & Order SVU & talked 2 my boyfriend. Then i got really really sick & i hadda fever & it sucked badly

[Sunday]
Woke up @ like 8 & went 2 church then went back 2 bed wen i got home. After that i just slept the whooooole day til about 8 & watched Desperate Housewives w/ Kathy & my dad.

[Monday]
School. BAH, then just messed around on the computer

[Tuesday]
AAHH wutta day. I got wished good luck like 1000000 times @ school. Then i came home & got ready 2 go & broke up w/ my bf. =[ I was really upset about that........then i went 2 the game but i was late meeting Erika @ the corner. Oops LMAO. We went in2 NDA 2 go 2 the bathroom then we were done w/ that;; went back outside & hung out 4 a while. Then we RAN 2 the stands & went 2 the top & all of the sudden Erika shouts, "TITTIES" & i was like wtf? & it was this REALLLLLY cute guy. I was like omg he is 2 die 4! But i didnt say nething yet. The game proceeded & i talked w/ Titties who's name is really Logan. Hes a really sweet guy. I love him & so we hadda connection & he let me borrow his sweatshirt. Wutta sweetie. So ya then i gave him like TONSA hugs. I think he mighta been annoyed by it tho.

[Wednesday]
Erika jumped on me 2 wake me up & we talked 4 a while then went 2 the bus & everyone was happy 2 see her. Then we went 2 school & that worked out the way we wanted it 2. I start crying tho in 1st hour. I was scared. After 1st hour we stayed outside fer 25 minutes & my toes got numb. We got 2 the hospital & hadda go up & down floors. It was confusing. After that they had 2 do a pregnancy test. GOD lol Then they got the IV in2 me & it hurt so bad that my nails were like implanted in Erika's hand. I love that girl so much she means the world 2 me. Then we went all over the hospital. fun fun fun. We went in the short stay room & told DC stories. Then it was time....dun dun dun. I got hugs & kisses from everyone. Wen we got 2 the operating room shes like im going 2 give u medicine 2 relax u & i was like the lights are spinning & i was out but they sed that i counted backwards. When i woke up some mean nurse was pushing on my groin. It hurt like hell. But she hadda put pressure on it so it wouldnt bleed everywhere. Next thing i knew i was sleeping agen & wen i woke up my aunt & mom had just happen 2 b around the area where i was & my mom sed that i sed hi & then started crying & i asked where erika was & she was in the bathroom. i was in alotta pain i do remember that. After this i went back 2 my room & i thought it was only 5 minutes later but it was 3 hours later. I cried more cuz i wanted Erika there but she hadda go 2 Drivers Ed. =[ The nurse told me that i hadda lay flat on my back fer 6 hours & it made me cry more cuz i was VERY uncomfortable. Then i slept more & got dinner chicken & fries yum! & then erika called me & she kept calling me beautiful & it kinda bothered me cuz i knew i didnt look good but shes erika mayb she did mean it. idk. Then she hadda go & i slept more then she called agen 2 hours later & i talked 2 her fer 20 seconds & she hadda go so i slept AGEN. & i was so fucking hot that there was pools of sweat on my bed. Then Jamarr called & i talked 2 him fer like an hour which was the last hour i had 2 lie on my back so he got 2 hear me talk about how uncomfortable i was & listened 2 me countdown. Then the nurse came & i got 2 sit up. So then i slept more & more & more & they hadda do more tests & then i hadda go 2 the bathroom. Looooooong story. so long it takes 3 hours so im not goina talk a bout it.

[Thursday]
tests in the morning & then i couldnt go home til i could go 2 the bathroom by myself. so then it finally happened & i went home & slept;; & then talked 2 jamarr & we are dating agen

[Friday]
slept alllll day & then talked 2 Jamarr. & then babysat & went home & went 2 bed

[Saturday]
woke up @ like 10:22. & did things all day.....like computer. Then went 2 church & i was really uncomfortable. Then tay & i were dancing around & then we went 2 Townline 4 dinner & ended up applying there. lol stupid erika. but i gotta say i love her tonnnns!

so that was my week

enjoy reading it

i ♥ Jamarr!