i really wanna kno how i feel, n i kno that souds so stupid but...idk how i feel...

Its really hadr not 2 feel 4gotten n uesless wen ur ENTIRE family leaves...n no one is home cept u...all fucken day long!!! even my dad wont do nething w/ me...i would walk over 2 Pincrest cept the road is blocked...so i cant...

my mom told me 2 call erika 2 cum over n it made me cry that idk HOW MANY TIMES i told her that...ERIKA IS @ HER DADS...my god...it makes me wonder, does she EVER? listen 2 wut i say?

n i havta go 2 Kathy's 4 a party 2night, after i babysit 4 5 hours....

n 2 add 2 all of this...im sick...last night i hadda go 2 the doctor...n i found out i have bronchitus, n a cold...so now its like, should i b goin 2 babysit n goin 2 a party? but...o well...the bronchitus is almost gone, n the cold...ill just take cold medicine

ya so im home til 5....so talk 2 me...

o n he REALLY needs 2 cum on!!! ive made this my issue 2...n my weekend is sucking mostly b cuz of this sickness...but also b cuz HE NEEDS 2 CUM ON!!! so i can tell him!!!

Love
Morgan

Lucas...u r the 2ND BEST EVER (u cant b first, thats erika)

look how sweet he is guys: *4 my sake it has been edited*

Effen1836 (11:25:01 PM): heyyyyy morgan :)

Auto response from iplayvball4life (11:25:01 PM): Feeling miserable, useless n 4gotten really sucks....

this sucks so much....

i just need sum1 2 talk 2....

Effen1836 (11:25:10 PM): is morgan there? i think i might have some cheering up to do!iplayvball4life (11:26:12 PM): ya im here
Effen1836 (11:26:31 PM): WANNA GO AND FROWLICK?
Effen1836 (11:26:49 PM): we can give our POISON POLLEN to the EVIL BEES named JASON AND DANA. and make them DIE
iplayvball4life (11:27:32 PM): thanx 4 trien but im waaaay 2 depressed right now n i dont really find that funny right now
Effen1836 (11:27:39 PM): hmm
Effen1836 (11:27:41 PM): let lucas think..
iplayvball4life (11:27:48 PM): k
Effen1836 (11:28:10 PM): a ferris wheel ride for anyone? hmmm i think LUCAS want to ride on the ferris wheel! WITH MORGAN!
iplayvball4life (11:28:27 PM): ok it got me 2 smile
Effen1836 (11:28:30 PM): AND
Effen1836 (11:29:04 PM): i'm pretty much thinking that i'm a stoner right now and i am dancing around being an effin psycho and FROWLINCING with my pretend freinds MORGAN AND ERIKA
Effen1836 (11:29:14 PM): and we're dancing on jason's FAT stomach
iplayvball4life (11:29:40 PM): speaking of jason, he was @ the mall on tuesday 2
Effen1836 (11:29:47 PM): LMFAO!
Effen1836 (11:29:55 PM): DID HE GET FATTER THAT FAT SWEATY CHUB?
iplayvball4life (11:30:22 PM): lol
Effen1836 (11:31:10 PM): :)
Effen1836 (11:31:20 PM): am i helping?
iplayvball4life (11:31:24 PM): not really
Effen1836 (11:31:30 PM): aw
Effen1836 (11:31:42 PM): spill your problems. i'll help
Effen1836 (11:31:42 PM): trust me
Effen1836 (11:32:48 PM): i guess your too depressed for my cheery majic... sorry
iplayvball4life (11:33:16 PM): hold on, mayb u can help, ill tell u wuts rong
Effen1836 (11:33:22 PM): OKAY
Effen1836 (11:34:58 PM): i'm ready 4 this
~*!~*! This part has been taken out 4 my own good...lol the whole world could read this if they wanted 2 ...so im goina keep it safe between me n Lucas!~*!~*
Effen1836 (11:37:40 PM): awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww omg i feel so bad morgan......:'(
Effen1836 (11:37:45 PM): i'm so sorry
Effen1836 (11:37:54 PM): severe clinical depression and what's that
iplayvball4life (11:39:18 PM): its a condition where, i cant really explain it but ill do my best...
Effen1836 (11:39:25 PM): ok shoot
iplayvball4life (11:41:02 PM): ok well...most of the time i am like sooooooo depressed that idk wut 2 do w/ myself...n idk exactly how im feeling but its a rush of sadness n the really sad thing is...i cant go thru 1 day w/o crien hysterically, its so bad that 2night i got soooooo depressed that i told my mom _________________
Effen1836 (11:41:35 PM): wow

Auto response from iplayvball4life (11:41:35 PM): Feeling miserable, useless n 4gotten really sucks....

this sucks so much....

i just need sum1 2 talk 2....

iplayvball4life (11:41:50 PM): lol im goina take my away message off now
Effen1836 (11:41:57 PM): lol
Effen1836 (11:41:58 PM): k
iplayvball4life (11:42:00 PM): ok there...
iplayvball4life (11:42:03 PM): ya so thats wut it is
Effen1836 (11:42:19 PM): wow
Effen1836 (11:42:21 PM): that sucsk
iplayvball4life (11:42:27 PM): yep
~!#!Once agen....taken out 4 my own good!#!~
Effen1836 (11:44:35 PM): i'll pray for you morgan. i will pray for you everynight
iplayvball4life (11:44:48 PM): omg thank you so much
iplayvball4life (11:44:50 PM): ur the best
Effen1836 (11:45:02 PM): i will say 3 prayers for you
Effen1836 (11:45:21 PM): i will pray for your perfect man. your _________. and your depression
iplayvball4life (11:45:36 PM): aaww thanx
Effen1836 (11:45:45 PM): you deserve it
Effen1836 (11:45:49 PM): and your welcome
iplayvball4life (11:46:22 PM): :)
Effen1836 (11:46:45 PM): :)
iplayvball4life (11:53:33 PM): no offense but...u didnt really cheer me up. but just talkin 2 sum1 n lettin it all out kinda helped...lol
Effen1836 (11:53:40 PM): haha
Effen1836 (11:54:07 PM): your welllcome
Effen1836 (11:54:15 PM): your secret is mine to keep
iplayvball4life (11:54:32 PM): thanx soooooo much...i really appericate it
Effen1836 (11:54:41 PM): your VERY welcome :0
Effen1836 (11:54:45 PM): :) *
$%^Taken out&^%
Effen1836 (11:57:04 PM): haha ik what you mean
iplayvball4life (11:57:19 PM): lol
Effen1836 (11:57:41 PM): i have my tricks...
Effen1836 (11:57:50 PM): of being able to tell what is about to happen or about who is around me
iplayvball4life (11:58:40 PM): ic....
Effen1836 (11:58:48 PM): lol
iplayvball4life (11:59:01 PM): ill brb
Effen1836 (11:59:06 PM): okay
Effen1836 (11:59:23 PM): lucas likes your away message :)

Auto response from iplayvball4life (11:59:24 PM): lucas, you are TOTALLY N COMPLETELY THE BEST PERSON EVER

brb

iplayvball4life (12:07:08 AM): ok im back, ya i thought you would like my away message
Effen1836 (12:07:13 AM): haha
*#~Taken out?:_
Effen1836 (12:07:39 AM): :)
Effen1836 (12:07:40 AM): good job!
Effen1836 (12:07:42 AM): WOOO
iplayvball4life (12:07:51 AM): lol

I love ya tons Lucas, n i miss u 2!!! We havta hang out soon!!!

Love
Morgan

xmas

Like Erika, i should do this now b cuz i wont later

n HOLY SHIT am i behind

ok so

Monday: i was sick, so i stayed home n my mom was sick 2 so we talked all day...i got alot off my mind, she called the Doctor's office and then she went n got coffee 4 us n then she came back took me 2 Subway n i got the subway that was craving...she put tomatoes on it..lmao erika n then went 2 my dads, got my homework from my teachers n then slept the rest of the night on the couch

Tuesday: ya it was drama filled...wont mention the details...but i can say this...i started crying in Health n Haley made me feel better. babysat, went home, went 2 counseling....called erika, didnt do ne of my homework n fell asleep on the couch @ 9:30...n didnt wake up til 10 ta 6 so i hadda get ready fast...n i still had clothes on from the day b4 n i hadnt showered...i felt like shit...

Wednesday: ya woke up late n then went 2 school...hadda take my algebra test during study hall n it took up most of my lunch 2...lol....after school i babysat n then went 2 the mall n bought more of Erika's present, bought Emily a present and then my sibs a present

Thursday: i got like 30 candy canes, YUM! n pretty much slacked off in all the classes, we ACCUALLY got homework in Algebra!! WTF?! in Science we watched Charlie Brown x-mas...n i kinda talked 2 Molly. Amiee made me a x-mas card...ya that was it...n then went 2 the party...that was fun...no comment....Lauren Malone n Erika kno wut im talkin about...;-) love ya guys!!!

Friday: got up @ like um....1:30 n got ready n my mom came @ 1:45 2 get me 4 the doctors...n then went 2 Erika's house 2 get tha sheet that SHE DIDNT PUT IN THE MAILBOX LIKE SHE WAS POSSTA! my mom was pissed...it didnt really bother me...things like that happen o well...we went 2 La Java, n i was scared so much of wut the doctor would say. We went 2 the doctor...n found out the stuff. He hadda pick @ my stomach b cuz of those things i get....n found nothing out from that

Saturday: slept til 2, tooka shower...n then got ready 4 the party...i looked sooo hot...lol @ tha party there were tons of hot guys....so ya...i had fun...n then my science teacher came...damn...lol. after the party we went 2 church n prayed long n hard...b cuz right now...everything is sucking badly...n i am so thankful 4 wut i have 2....ecpecially...erika...she is the best, talked 2 danny...after church we went looken around @ x-mas lights like we do every year, went home my mom came over n then we went 2 bed, i couldnt sleep so i read.

Sunday: got woken up @ like 10 2 8, opened presents....n then @ 1 my dad n i left 4 the game....got there, parked...walked around....went in...n sat down....we were surrouned by Bears fans...but they gave us crap. But in a fun way...no harsh things...it was all nice n fun n thats the way it should b..lol

Monday: got up @ like 3...did homework, went 2 my moms...talked 2 erika online 4 5 hours...til 1 in the morning, then @ 1:30 i got off n watched sum Laguna beach went 2 sleep

Tuesday: talked 2 erika all day, n then we decided 2 go 2 the mall so i hadda clean n taka shower...n she called me wen i was in the shower...ya i was cold...we went 2 the mall n EVERYONE that i knew was ther...it was crazy!! we tried 2 avoid eddie...that didnt work...lol n then after that we went 2 the bank....lol wow...there was a DEAD person in the car...lol

Wednesday: o GOD was it filled w/ drama...so my mom stayed home sick from work....n well...@ about 4ish she fainted n hit her head on the window ledge n we hadda call 911....they came...i cried...my sister cried...my other sister cried...my brother stood there n watched...scary....n ya there that was my day

now: talkin 2 erika n waiting 4 my mom 2 cum

later: nothin....call me

I LOVE YOU ERIKA!

omfg

wow, many many many mixed emtions

its really hard living like this, really really really hard... :-/

no one understands, cept my mom, b cuz she has been thru this...n i feel like i cant even talk 2 her ne more...

idk wut 2 do...

i cant take it ne more...i needa day or a week away, away from everything...my life is falling apart...

i feel really dumb wenever i do nething...

n only 2 ppl can change that. but they dont care

Ok even tho i dont like her its only polite 2 say:HAPPY BIRTHDAY KATHY!!!!

i guess that i am kinda starten 2 like her

Ok status on mom n dad

Dad: His girlfriend Kathy Donovan she has a daughter Kylie 8 years old

Mom: Her boyfriend is Kelly(A REALLY DUMB NAME) idk his last name. He has 2 sons Logan who is 14 n then i dont member the other name, i think its Mark who is 12.

I like its kinda kewl that my mom is dating...lol dont ask y, i think i MIGHT get my life long wish that i thought would NEVER cum true...n it was impossible til about April ;-) it wont b exactly wut i wanted but it will b pretty darn close :) :) :) :-P

love
Morgan

ok i got so many awesome things 4 Christmas n i kno it was really hard 2 get most of these things 4 my parents....but i love them all

from santa: i gotta brand new bike...its fucken awesome!! its blue n its a mountain bike, i have NEVER had a new bike, they have all been from my cousin Holly, so im pretty excited about that

from dad: an ipod................jk, well its a shower radio n its shaped like an ipod n it works like an ipod cept its bigger and its water proof, a book by my favorite author, um.................i dont member the rest...o ya n earrings

from mom: a bunch of candy, the FULL FIRST SEASON OF LAGUNA BEACH!!!! YES!!! the carrie underwood CD...i still love #4...;-), um then sum thing else that im not goina say....o n my FAV...SHE GOT ME MY HAIR DRYER STRAIGHTENER!!! I LOVE IT!!!

from erika: a t shirt that says "Im not a bad girl, im a good girl w/ attidtude" n silver earrings

ya i still gotta give erika her present, ill do that this week

ya so went 2 the doctor on friday, *gulp*

Morgan

o n yesterday i went 2 my first packer game ever, even tho we lost, i had soooooooooooooo much fun!

Im starting 2 think that the ppl that matter dont care @ all n the ppl that did care b4 dont ne more....

i am sooooooooooooooooooo confused right now....i hate this....n ppl dont ask y b cuz its only goina make me cry b cuz, ive told it 2 like 3 ppl already n they all sed it was dumb...if u really needa kno...i have NO FUCKEN CLUE....i hate it b cuz idk nething ne more...n im stupid n i hate myself n NO ONE seems 2 care about nething that happens 2 me...

sick

*yawn*

o im tired...n sick, i havent been this sick since like 2nd grade....

Cassie, u r one of the bestest ppl i kno

I love ya hun!

I am scared 2 death right now, n i cant exactly tell y. n soooo many ppl think im dumb b cuz im all depressed n idk y, its called severe clinical depression. So get over it...n i wish i could tell ppl wuts goina happen but my mom sed that i can only tell erika n idk if she'll understand

Im goin 2 the doctor on Friday which is good...

oo good thing tho....um...i had xmas w/ the family yesterday n my aunt got us tvs 4 our rooms w/ DVD players, so im watching all the movies we rented this weekend in my room...

lol my mom sed that she wants 2 watch saw w/ erika garrett n lauren....:)

ya so drama this weekend:
Friday: my party
Saturday: the person in my house
Sunday: got the flu

ha ha ha, Tyler is never goina talk 2 me agen...im kinda happy about that...

my mom hasta call erika's mom 2night, 2 bad i wont b here 2 find out how that goes :) i love my moms... LMAO that sounds so wrong!

Ya well im goina go finish watching my movies!

Love
Morgan

ya i go back 2 my dads 2day so ill b online alot less, ppl leave me tons of comments....in here n in my myspace. www.myspace.com/bpchic

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if i didnt believe in God b4, i do now....

ok, can u say THE WORST NIGHT OF MY LIFE!!

i totally screwed things up....

my new FAVORITE QUOTE EVER!

Let me tell you something
I am alone
I have fake friends who dont care
I am sad and cry everynight
I write dark poems
And hide alot
I appear shy
And fake a smile
Funny enough, I fooled you all
But really, all I want is to be loved
I want you all to know my hurt
But no one will listen and no one will care
So Im letting myself slowly f a l l apart

Garrett thanxz, ur a really good friend

The floor turns on garrett...;-)

wow...asian chicks...

more quotes about how i feel:
~even her friends don't understand her
she's a question without answers
~in my opinion, the worst possible feelingis wondering how things could have would
have. & should have been
~It's not that I'm mad at you, I just wished and hoped so hard that you would be the one thing I could truly count on
~and i`m blasting my music
so i won`t hear my thoughts.
~no matter how many coins you
throw in a fountain, or the number
of fingers you cross, if it's not mean
tto be, it won't happen
~You can try your hardest, you can do everything and say everything..but sometimes people just aren't worth trying over anymore..they aren't worth worrying about...it's important to knowwhen to let go of someone who only brings you down
~Sometimes some people run away to be alone, but sometimes they run away to see if you care enough to follow them
~ Lose one friend.. Lose all friends.. Lose yourself..-- Eric * Boy Meets World*
~true friends will be there even if you refuse to talk to them
because they know deep down inside you can't stand the silence

Ok u all kno how i hadda get pics taken 4 my Aunt's xmas present n i hated the first ones...well we got the retakes back n THEY R AWESOME!!! If i hadda scanner i would scan them n put them in here...but i dont...sorry

~^~We have one where we have the 3 girls on their hands n knees n cooper is layen acrosst our backs w/ his hand on his head.
~^~ Then we have one where we r all sittin 2gether on a couch, i look like a prep in that pic, lol ya its funny, neways i am a prep so thats prolly y i looked like one
~^~Then there is one of just me n i am infront of a xmas tree but i am 2 tall so i hadda kneel so i look really short but i LOVE tha picture...

ok now i hava joke 4 u...grab a calculator

Britteny SPears =69
had 222 many boobs
so she went to 51 street
to visit Dr. X(click the multiply button)
n then = n turn the calcualtor upside down

LOL I LOVE IT!

:)

2MAROW IS THE PARRRRRRRRRTY!!

Steph dont EVER 4get we all love you n EVERYONE is praying 4 u hun....and DEF 4 Jon....we all love him 2...all u havta do is b paitent n pray

I LOVE YOU SOO MUCH! DONT EVER 4GET THAT!!!!

2day was sucky...

morning: didnt feel like gettin dressed so went 2 school in my pjs

bus stop: nothin special

bus: nothin

school: ya um...i dont wanna talk about it

fashion: idk who 2 believe ne more...

computer: JARED IS DOIN A FOOTBALL FIELD!! i finally figured out how 2 do the bottom

la: um...i had the perfect chance...it woulda been awesome

study hall: OmFg Stormey is sooo much like me...shes goina cum 2 my party...

lunch: steph had went home n i started crying b cuz of sumthin that happened...i dont think i have nefriends b4...

health: OmFg...way 2 much drama...there was an abulence and marcadies was crying, everyone felt bad 4 steph who wasnt evern there...:) we love you steph

ss: i kept spacen out...

algebra: god do i ahte her

science: did a worksheet n went over it

babysittin: we played in the snow

got home...things happened

went shopping 4 my party...i got awesome stuff...

ok, 2day ended up 2 b the way i thought it would b

morning: woke up n it took me 4ever 2 get ready, idk y b cuz there is still no one 2 look good 4

bus stop: got candy canes from alyssa

bus: nothin really stared out the window, OMG...MY SONG WAS ON!!!! I <3>

school: waited 4 erika who didnt show up, n then walked 2 fashion n brandon looked @ me really weird but it was interesting

fashion: didnt really do ne thing n got yelled @...

computer: GO FOOTBALL!! lol erika, i need u there everyday!!

la: um...nothin speical, watched memphis belle n danny got hurt.....GROSS!

study hall: talked 2 stormy, n erika n i talked about tyler

lunch: Ok it was REALLY weird...i sat w/ erika, eric, cody, brandon n brad, n i kno i shouldnt have been there...

health: finished the video n talked about $$

ss: nothin really...went over worksheet

algebra: OMG...I DONT GET IT! lol 66

science: um...nothin, she kept talkin 2 erika...

after school: i called my mom...n then erika n eric talked while i went 2 my locker...n then i talked 2 garrett....um...ya...n then waited 4 erikas mom

car: me n erika talked..accually erika n her mom talked...n i just talked wen erikas mom asked me ?s...ya, its dumb...

home: i made garrett cum in bcuz he looked cold n he tried 2 give me candy but i didnt want ne...n then we went 2 my room he looked around n he left n went 2 syd n coop's room, n then read my rules, then we talked in the hallway n he told me i wasnt fat, um ya right, n then the kids came home n he gave them candy n gave me gum n then left

now: nothin

later: nothin call me...

I love you Tyler!i!i!i

uhg

ok i am in a really pissy mood...n im not goina tell ne1 y

i dont like the person ive becum....i wanna change it, n as i try harder n harder it hurts more n more

idk y but 2marow is not goina b the best exprience ever....but hey, if they have issues they needa grow up...like alot....b cuz thats really low

cant wait til 9:30

I love you Tyler!

interesting

o wutta interesting da

morning: woke up n tried 2 change my icon but i couldnt b cuz my computer is messed up

bus stop: lyssa wasnt there sooo i just stood there

bus: me n DJ talked about r bfs, lol we r really weird ppl

school: um.................i dont member

fashion: aaww i love my purse fabric, 2marow i gotta make the patterns 4 the strap n the pocket

computer: did a program, damn i had tonsa fun, 2marow i gotta think of a project 2 do

LA: just went over our papers, idk wut we r doin 2marow, i think we r watching memphis belle...I LOVE THAT MOVIE!!

study hall: OmFg!! it was so much fun, sam got me pissed but i was sitting w/ garrett n cody, wow r they insane....i love those 2...u should c my hands n my ALGEBRA assignment, u guys r sooo mean!!!

lunch: didnt eat much n talked 2 ryan alex n jacob...he looked @ me very evily....uhm.....ALEX LIKES SAM! ha ha ha

health: watched a movie, i swear 2 god i was goina puke! 2marow we r taken notes i think

ss: did a worksheet me n the guys...lol ha ha ha 2marow is goina b interesting wen mrs taylor cms back

algebra: we hadda do 2-96 evens!!!! n good thing we didnt correct ur assignment b cuz now i can fix the damage that cody n garrett did 2marow we r correcting 2 assignments n then idk

science: um.....took notes, ha ha ha katie is goina b mad @ molly!!! 2marow we r doin sum ting, i dnt member she sed...n no we cant hava snow day 2marrow!!

now im babysitting...c ya later!!!

Love ya tyler!

Ok so u ppl kno how i was talkin about Tyler alot? Well ok mayb not but i was 2 Erika...

I gotta confess, well Molly n Sammie already kno this but...

Ya Sunday night i dumped Jason n like 5 minutes later i talked 2 my awesome friend Tyler...n we were talkin n ya well he kinda asked me out n i kinda sed yes....b cuz i really like him, lol Erika can tell u that....

Ya so u can call me a slut, u can call me a player u can call me w/e u want b cuz ive heard all of em....

Ya so i hadda say that b cuz it was goina b hard 2 keep that inside

Hes the best..

Love alwaiz Tyler

My favorite commerical EVER

when the mom gets the train set 4 her 3 kids n shes talkin about how they dont listen 2 her ne more

"Who wants a puppy?"
no response
"The tooth fairy is cuming 2 dinner"
no response
"Your dad is really superman"
no reponse...

o god do i LOVE that commercial

n the one that scares me the most is

the one where the burgers start dancing like an amp....it makes me cry...lol

ever completely embarressed urself in front of ur best friend's bf? well i have....LMAO...read n u will c

first i gotta talk about last night, ok ppl kno how hard it is 4 me 2 keep a secret cept 4 wen its a good one, well last night i kno is a time where i keep my mouth shut....;-) i think last night i officially b came a 14 year old

morning: OMG i stayed up so late last night til like 4 so i was tired....so i turned on the timer in the kitchen n fell asleep agen in the living room....i had it set 6:30 n hadda dream that i woke up 6:47 n hadda rush around the house 2 get ready....well then i heard my moms alarm go off...n i looked @ the time n i didnt hear the timer go off n it was 6:47, it was weird. so i got dressed really fast n went out 2 the bus stop

bus stop: i was so cold...sumtime i wish i had my bf there 2 hug me n make me warm

bus: ya we talked about chris

school: went 2 Katie's locker w/ her...i love her....

fashion: i really wanna kno emily...but o well, n i did my hair n makeup n Mrs. Bannon wasnt there...o darn...(in mind *YESSSSSSSSSSSSS*)

computer: i was spacing out n kept thinking about my conversation w/ that one person last night

LA: wutta awesum class... *wink* *wink*

study hall: sat by myself n wrote erika a note...danny wouldnt let me have his sweatshit n i was about 2 cry i was cold...lol ya we would keep switchen sweatshirts :)

lunch: i am trien 2 watch wut i eat...soo i didnt eat much

Ok, now here cums the funniest part of my day, me n steph r walken up the stairs n im like "OMG...he NEEDS 2 call her...hes maken me soooooooooooooo pissed!!!! I feel bad 4 Erika, i would make my bf call me everynight" n then shes like "o that sux" n then i go steph get ur ass outta my face....n then i heard brad klimek talk, hes like "dont worry about it"...n then i heard a very familiar voice n i turn around...n im like o SHIT....guess who was behind me....RIGHT behind me the ENTIRE time?!?!?!?!?!?! I was like OMFG...i did not just do that!!! but i dont think he heard me...but if he did...even if he didnt...i was soo embaressed incase he did....omFg....ya...so that was a wonderful thing

health: DAMN, i needa get better grades

history: tooka test...NOT GOOD

algbera: we learned an easy lesson n thens he let us out really early, it friggin rocked

science: got r tests back agen

babysat n then came here

im goin 2 the counseler on thursday b cuz hes sick 2day, but i gotta get this out 2 sum1...but i am feelin a lil better about stuff after last night

Love ya hun ;-)

Morgan

lets c, my night was pretty cool

Sparrow called me n we talked 4 like 45 minutes....lol wow, memories....i like that word....lol dont ask

now im talkin 2 Tyler....hes pretty awesome...n VERY VERY interesting....;-)

Love alwaiz,
Morgan

ahew

well lets c, my weekend so far isnt the best, ive been sick all weekend...but im goina get better b cuz ive gotta friend that wants me 2 get better...;-)

Friday was rough, but then i talked 2 my 3 favorite ppl n i was ok

Saturday
~i got up @ 10 n went up stairs n did nothing really
~n i curled my hair agen b cuz i liked how it was yesterday
~n then put it in a ponytail n my hiar looked the cutest it has ever looked in 4 like 4 months...i LOVED it, n then all tha boiz showed up...
~n i called Jason 2 c wut he was doing n he came w/ us...n ya i ended up goin w/ my family 2 the place 4 my bros party...but only b cuz my mom wanted me 2...n i guess it wasnt that bad...bsides i had Jason w/ me...me n him walked around holding hands...:)...n i got the BEST hot cocoa i have EVER had...n then we went outside...n ya it was fun...
~wen we got back it was time 4 pizza n we sat in these really small chairs...
~wen we got back home me n jason went downstairs n cooper n his friends ran around...
~then Jason left and my aunt took me n syd 2 walmart
~n she bought me a new purse b cuz shes leaven soon, n i love my new purse, now i have like 40 of em...
~broght me back home...
~my dad n i put up the xmas tree
~n then Kathy came over...yaaaaaa....
~then my uncle bob n tom came....i <3>
~we sat n talked
~they left 4 dinner n i was so sick i couldnt move so i watched a bunch of movies...
~they got home n i managed 2 walk downstairs....n went 2 bed

Sunday
~got up @ 8 n 8 a lil bit of breakfast
~got ready 4 church
~went 2 church w/ my dad, bob, n tom.....n Mark Mader sat in front of us, n the new priest makes u turn around n talk 2 ppl b4 mass starts so i talked 2 Mark's dad, n i think he was ignoring me...lol
~n then the sign of peace came n Mark turns around n w/ the HOTTEST smile EVER he goes, Hey Morgan, peace...n i could help but smiling like an idiot as i sed peace
~Bob n Tom brought me over 2 my aunts house n i went thru her fabric n picked out the BEST fabric ever 4 the purse i am maken....hopefully she likes it...its not like i wanted it but i think its better
~my aunt brought us over 2 my dads
~waited 4 my mom
~mom came
~now im here

Love
Morgan

if one night a huge man climbs through your window and stuffs you in a bag, don't stress, i told santa i wanted you for christmas.O:-) <^wutta cute quote

I lOvE yOu BoB N tOm!!!!!!

have fun 2night n b careful on ur way home

Luv ya Jason

oooo *sigh*

i needa life...

cassie n i r so pathetic...:)

2night was fun cassie!!

BYE ERIKA! (there ya go) :)

erika looked so pretty 2day

I LOVE YOU ERIKA N CASSIE!

i dont got much time

lets just say i hadda bad day

i didnt really talk n i found out that ppl @ school rnt my friends...

n ya, erika i needa talk 2 u...so call me on my cell ill have it w/ me wherever i go, its important

Love ya rika!
Morgan

ya wen i sed that i wasnt goina b on 4 a month i meant, im not possta but i have my ways, ive done this 2 many times....

ok i feel so sick right now

i dont wanna go 2 school 2day or 2 the xmas concert.....but i do wanna go 2 the NDA vasity basketball game...but thats not goina happen

o well...i gotta try harder if i wanna do stuff...

my 3 favorite songs r: Jesus take the Wheel, Boulvard (sp) of Broken Dreams, and the one song....damni cant remember the name...wen i do i will write it....

ya so u kno how i am haven trubble w/ friends....well theres one in particular....this person admitted that they hate me...so i got quotes (i have quotes 4 everything)

*So iLL gO oN + PreTeNd We NeVeR MeT..AnD DeeP DoWn i WisH..tHaT wE HaDnT..
*When ever you smile
its like history repeating
On & On
cuz im falling for you
HARDER everytime x3
*And you always seem to find a way to make me cry...
*If I cried a whole river
and Drowned in my tears
would you have even noticed
that i disappeared?

ya those r the random things on my mind...

I can't deal with these feelings,
The ones inside of me.


So I've decided to shut them out,
So the world I can see.


I'll become an empty corpse,
Feelings hidden deep within.


So I can deal with this pain,
And the reasons I will never win.


I'll still listen to your words,
I'll pay attention to what you say,
But when it comes to acting on them,
I'll leave that for another day.


This is worth a try,
I think it's the only way to survive.


To make me feel worthy of something,
Or even to just feel alive.


No matter what I do,
No matter what you say.


Nothing ever changes,
I can't go on this way.


So shutting it out,
Will save me from this pain.


Becoming completely numb,
Will let me win this game.

wut i need right now is a really big hug n sum1 2 say its goina b ok, but i havent told ne1 wuts going on....

but really idk wut 2 do...everything is seeming 2 fall down around me...

there r so many rumors goin around about how my friends think i am annoying...n idk if i should believe em or not...its a hard thing....n sum1 sed sumthin about me...n ooooooooo.....i dont wanna b alive...

snow is soo pretty

o its so beautiful, its snowing, i love watching it snow. it makes me think about good things that have happened 2 me...that i kno will never happen agen

ok well i hadda REALLY long post about yesterday written in a notebook but i 4got it @ school...so 2day...

woke up

got dressed ya u kno the drill

school:since i have this one thing on my mind i couldnt just sit there quiet so i went n talked 2 Alyssa n Garrett about like everything...its happenin agen...but this time...im not goina say nething 2 ne1

computer: stuff

study hall: lol good times....dont feel like typing them all, lol but i am a generous person n garrett...hun u needa learn that u cant break a 4 lol

*ok now im crying b cuz i hate my life sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much...* omg...i am soo upset

this is the last post that i am goina post 4 @ least a week or 2....

y did i havta screw up?

neways

lunch: ya mikayla's table was right next 2 mine

ss: ya dont wanna talk about it

algebra: tooka test

ya so ill talk 2 u ppl in like idk a month most likely...

o n i hava feeling this one thing is goina happen soon, i can just tell b cuz its almost been a month, n no im not talkin about problems...im like 80% sure its goina happen...ill havta keep an eye out @ school

love ya all!
Morgan

Artist/Band: Underwood Carrie

Lyrics for Song: Jesus, Take The Wheel

Lyrics for Album: Some Hearts

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati

On a snow white Christmas Eve

Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat

Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline

It been a long hard year

She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention

She was going way to fast

Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass

She saw both their lives flash before her eyes

She didn't even have time to cry

She was sooo scared

She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheel

Take it from my hands

Cause I can't do this all on my own

I'm letting go

So give me one more chance

To save me from this road I'm on

Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder

And the car came to a stop

She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock

And for the first time in a long time

She bowed her head to pray

She said I'm sorry for the way I've been living my life I know

I've got to change

So from now on tonight

Jesus take the wheel

Take it from my hands

Cause I can't do this all my own

I'm letting go

So give me one more chance

To save me from this road

I'm on Oh,

Jesus take the wheel

Oh, I'm letting go

So give me one more chance

Save me from this road I'm on

From this road I'm on

Jesus take the wheel

Oh, take it, take it from me

Oh, why, oh

last night was alotta fun...we r crossdressers...lol

but i hava issue....

I havta go meet my dads gf 2day...n my dad told me i didnt havta n that i hadda think about it. n then this morning he goes o u havta go...so now im crien n idk wut 2 do b cuz i really dont wanna meet her....

HELP!

n i needa talk 2 Garrett or Chuckie as mom would say 4 3 reasons but i dont c him @ all 2day b cuz its block.....

ya so 2day i only have

Fashion
Language Arts
Lunch
Health
Science...

fun stuff

o help me God 2 get thru this day w/o puking....

:'(
Morgan

o wow, i am soo dizzy right now...

i am very busy this week...O SHIT i 4got 2 do my monthly planner...ill do it wen i go 2 back 2 my moms b cuz i am goin back there on Sunday steada Monday b cuz we gotta do x-mas w/ my aunts...n b cuz my dad is goin 2 the game...

yay, i LOVE xmas

accually...im sick of ppl sayen that b cuz i...HATE xmas...specially this xmas

i got my pix taken yesterday...i HATE being fat! n i am goina get them retaken, the ones of just me...n im GOING 2 lose weight...im worken on it

Love
Morgan

Hey pplz

2day was not the way i planned it...n i get really pissy wen its not the way i like it

well lets c....

morning: woke up n took me a 1/2 hour 2 get ready b cuz i felt like looken perfect 2day...idk who i have 2 look perfect 4 but w/e

bus stop: alyssa was talkin n then i go YAY lol n idk wut she even sed

bus: talked 2 DJ about secretive stuff

school: Brandon walked by so i go like as fast as i could Brandon....HAPPY BIRTHDAY n he smiled n sed thanx, n then i sat there...wondering how my day would go

fashion: we were desiging purses...n i was smiling n Em wanted 2 kno y,

computer: um...worked out the kinks in the project....

la: opied down the science notes from molly's notebook b cuz we were watching sum movie...its really good...n i had the name stuck in my head b4 but now i cant member it...o wait Memphis Belle

study hall: uh *sigh*

lunch: i 8 a lil bit i have $1 left in my account

health: tooka test that i failed b cuz i wasnt there wen they got the info

ss: OMG...i have ALWAIZ hated SS...its still called SSS 4 a REASON!

algebra: failed a test in that subject 2

science: me n molly decided wut im goina have @ my party! SHE CAN CUM...WOO HOO!!! YAY!!! i hoper rika can

bus: just sat there n sang

now: talkin 2 KT i love that girl soo much

later: working on ALOT of homework

Love
Morgan

Ppl that made my weekend not the worst ever

um....

Taylor: hun i love ya tons!!! i love goin 2 the mall w/ u!!! LYLAS!

Jason: wow...my hot bf!!! lol....:) Im glad u were @ the mall Saturday, I LOVE YOU! We hadda lotta fun on Saturday....n im srry about 2day...im glad u came over tho...lylnlnlnlnlnlnlnl

Garrett: hun, thankz soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much 4 maken me feel better 2day!! i really really needed it...i might not b here typing this right now if it wasnt 4 u. !!!!LoVe Ya ToNs!!!!!

Ashli: hey hun, glad u were @ the mall!!! Thanx 4 helping me find a gift 4 Erika, c ya in July...lylas

Tiffany: i think everyone will love ur hair, its the same color as mine right? everyone is dieing their hair that color XoXoXoXo

Lauren: sweetie u r the best thing that has ever happened in Camp Tek history, MY BEST CAMP FRIEND!!! xoxoxoxox

Mom: looken 4ward 2 it...luv ya mom

Erika: even tho u didnt really have alot 2 do w/ my weekend, still gettin 2 talk 2 u made me happy!! I LOVE YA BFFL!

thats it

Thanxz all!!!

Morgan

O wow....friends r awesome!

Thank u sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

much Garrett!!!!!!!!!!!!

Garrett Kevin Birschbach ( i think i got ur last name right) U r one of a kind. You really are one of the best!!! U made me feel 1000000000000000000000000% better...OMG...i swear 2 god that 2day was prolly the worst day of my life...n u changed it in2 one that wont b 4gotten

I love ya tons!!!

Morgan

o ya and i admit it...but i only sed once, not 20 times..

Ok, since im @ my moms i have NO clothes b cuz shes a fucken idiot n doesnt have a washing machine n i gotta go get my picture taken 2day so i am wearing a halter top n jeans, THAT IS GOINA LOOK SOO FUCKEN STUPID!

I hate this family!

This morning i was sleeping n Sydey called me n she made Cooper gimmie the phone WHILE I AM SLEEPING...so i go "I dont wanan talk 2 u, next time dont wake me up good bye" n hung up, then she calls me on my cell n i go "WUT THE HECK! stop calling me while i am sleeping" n hung up, n the stupidest thing is, she wanted 2 tell me that a stupid monster truck did say Eric Fonder on it...N HER EXACT WORDS WERE "ur right the monster truck says Eric Fonder on it u were right" bc uz i had sed that on the way back form teh mall yesterday...SHE HADDA WAKE ME UP 2 FUCKEN TELL ME THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! O M F G!

N now my hair is wet n we gotta go take r picture now...n my mom is like OMG...take your hair down!! EVERYONE hasta have their hair down. n so i argued 4 like ever n then finally took it down then it was it was soooooooooooooooo snarly...n i couldnt brush it, then im sitting here n my mom goes OMG MORGAN GO BLOW DRY YOUR HAIR! Im like i haven NEVER blew dried my hiar b 4 b cuz IT DOESNT WORK...shes like well do it...n im like no, it she stopped

now my stupid sister doesnt kno how 2 do her homework b cuz she 4got her book n my mom is acten like nothing is wrong...i was like OMG...I HATE HER!

wel i g2g,

c ya later Jason!!!!

I Love you!!!!

Love,
Morgan

i cant wait til i getta go out w/ my other family on Tuesday, those ppl love me...unlike this family

ya im bored

i am babysittin my brother n his friend

u kno how i sed there was nothing else @ the mall that was worth mentioning? i lied...

theres a HUGE secret that only Lauren knos...lol he he he...naughty!! :) yep totally!! lol good times!

ya soo im goina look 4 surveys!!!!

Love
Morgan Reniee Lynn Herman-Compton Maki Nicla *his last name*

;-) Love ya hun! u kno who u r!!!

ok 2day was very fun

i woke up @ 9:30 w/ my phone call...lol i told sum1 2 call me @ 9:30 in the morning 2 wake me up so sum1 did but i dont kno who it was ne more

n my back hurt like hell so my mom massaged me agen....

n then i got ready 2 go 2 the mall...YAY!

@ the mall i say HALEY (my cuzen haley)

n then we 8, n then i went 2 Kohl's n gave in n got erika a lil thing b cuz i hadda return her big thing, but its cute

n then i saw Nicole n talked 2 her

n then i saw nate....AAHH!!

GROSS!!!

alot more happened but nothing worth mentioning

then i got home there was a note on the counter that sed that erikas mom called n asked if i wanted 2 go shopping and go out 4 coffee w/ her n erika on tuesday....so i called my dad n he sed i could soo i gotta call mom back but im 2 lazy 2 right now

goin 2 church later

love
morgan

&& I sit and listen to everyone's love storiesand I'm thinking to myself, "where's mine?"

CHICKS before DICKS

.. SHE CUT ..
more&&more
her arm was now
FULL of L i N E S
her artistic way of dealing with it
instead of
[C0MPLAiNTS && WHiNES]

True friends make the bad times better and the good times unforgettable. *

her heart is black and full of hate
but you can't tell by looking at her face
she seems so happy
with all her friends
laughing and joking with all of them
but under her skin
she wants to cry
but no tears can come out her pretty blue eyes
it's killing her, from the inside out
and she knows it without a doubt
she keeps it inside
always and forever
hoping one day it might help make it better
but she keeps smiling, for all her friends

&& HER FRiENDS D0NT UNDERSTAND HER ;;SHES A QUESTiON *WiTHOUT* ANSWERS ...WH0 FEELS LiKE SHES - * FALLiNG APART *

I'm tired of trying to act oblivious...Like I just dont care...Because in my heart..I couldn't care more!

these days : everyone is depressed
no one cares about you personality
there are few songs without cuss words
you bring up the Lord & people look at you weird
you stand up for someone & get called a bad name
the type of clothing you wear describes you
how much money you have gives you your popularity
everyone breaks each others hearts
& and doesn't think much of it you can become so lonley
.. and no one will notice

PLEASE D0Nt CRYii, dRYii Y0UR EYES, NEVER lET UP. F0RGiiVE BUT D0Nt F0RGEt, GiiRL KEEP Y0UR HEAd UPilL BE THE 0NE t0 CAtCH Y0U EVERYtiME Y0U FAlL WHENY0UR HAViiNG TR0UBlE ilL BE THE 0NE Y0U CAlL . ilL BEtHE FRiiENd t0 tAlK t0 N0W, tHEN 0R WHENEVER . CUZ ii l0VE Y0U S0 MUCH . B E S T *F R ii E N D S* F 0 R E V E R

I'm gonna write down every time you told me
you loved me and those five hundred pages
I'm gonna shove down your throat so you'll have
enough 'I love you's' for the next girl

iTs ThA TiMeS wE aRe 'sO cRaZy peOpLe*tHiNkWe High.. its ThA TimeSWe sO borEd We LaugHuNtIlL wE cRy ..- ThOseinside jokes n 'rememberWhenS' 'No MattA' wHaT_.-`-._ wE gOnNa StAy-»' [ b E s T f R i E n D s ]*

it`s hard tO wait around fOr sOmething youknOw wOn`t happen but it's even [[harder]] when you knOw- its all you want <3>

:: when your parents catch yoo too drunk too walk ::
:: and when they catch yoo too high too talk ::
:: when you cant think and dont know what to do ::
:: *dont plan on askin me.. cuz ill b rite there* ::
:: SCREWED UP WITH YOU* ::

NOT EVEN MAKEUP COULD MAKE HERLOOK BEAUTIFUL , BECAUSE REAL ;BEAUTY IS LOVING HERSLEF / && THATS SOMETHING SHE CANT DO.

i G0T Y0UR BACK N0 MATTER THE . SiTUATi0N .YA`LL ARE MY GiRLSz ; D0N`T NE3D N0. EXPLANATi0N .

A FAKE SMiLE . FOLLOWED BY A REAL TEARS.

lol my day pretty much had alot 2 do w/ garrett starting inbetween 2nd hr and the rest of the day, lol

morning: woke up n gotdressed PIRATE PRIDE BABY!

bus stop: told alyssa sumthin

bus: me n jared talked...hes kinda weird

school: nothin really

fashion: she yelled @ me b cuz i was sick on WEDNESDAY!!! y didnt she yell @ my yesterday?

in between, lol garrett had the weird look on his face

computer: nothing really

la: talked 2 danny alot...n thought about how i hadda c garrett next hour

study hall: HA HA HA!! ya soo i was sick on wednesday...well....we hadda reveiw assignment n i didnt get the one part....so i go up 2 brandon n im like u guys r smart right? n garrett goes ya i am...n he does the problem 4 me, n then he mad a big ass long line! n then wrote ont eh front IM MORGAN AND IDK WUT I AM DOING....lol n then on the back he wrote Erika rocks and then Garrett is awesome. I went back 2 my table n came back n he did another one 4 me....n then a nother one....n then another one....lol *smile* so he pretty much finished my assignment

lunch: uhm...all i member was steph asken me y i wasnt eating

health: um...im getting an F b cuz i didnt take the quiz

ss: um...tooka test n then went 2 the bathroom n JOHN! was @ his locker doin homework he 4got 2 do last night....so i talked 2 him a lil...i love talked 2 him

algebra: tooka test, i failed

science: turned in assignment and then took notes

walked 2 swansons babysat

now im here

2marow i am goin 2 the mall, but i cant spend ne money

Love
Morgan

As i put that 8th pill in my mouth my hand is shaking

Even tho i am taking pain releivers my body hurts more

Then i get THAT email

n i think, im not goina lay this on her right now, none of it

"Have you loved someone so much that ur give ur life 4 her?"
"Litterally give ur life 4 her?"

Im not tellin her wuts wrong n im not goina kill myself b cuz she has enough stress n im really feeling 4 her right now...n i dont need her 2 b worrying about me right now

But yet, idk wut 2 do....

2day was

if u exclude the fact that i have 3 HUGE projects due 2marow, 3 math assignments and have 2 copy notes from 3 subjects....2day was almost perfect!!

monring: wok eup, straightened my hair and then parted it on the side

bus stop: alyssa wanted 2 kno y erika hates her

bus: we talked about how i i was "sick" yesterday and more about y erika hates alyssa

school: gave my possi their invites

fashion:OMG...mrs buttcrack wouldnt give me stuff 4 the face!!!

in between: gave garrett his invite...lol...n then went n gave lauren hers

computer: aaww, john sed i was pretty!!!!

LA: we did our stories...n i talked 2 Dany n Meridith the whole time...n omg...it is sooo weird b cuz me n Meredith have the same exact initials!! MLH!! thats weird...n then me n danny r sooooo smart!!

study hall: wow...i LOVED study hall 2day. ok, garrett kept gettin up n then sittin down n then he would get up agen....welli knew he was goina give sumthin 2 me...sure enough sammie cums up 2 me n goes this is from Garrett, wel juding from the past week i thought it would b mean....so i decided not 2 look @ it n went on w/ wut i was doin, but u kno i am a courious gal so i opened it...n it sed

Ill be there
-Garrett

so i was happy, n then i was messen around b cuz i was in SUCHA good mood

lunch: uhm...nothin special, i gotta pretzel and cheese...YUMMY! n HE GOT HIS HAIR CUT AGEN! lol n omg...all the wrestlers look so sexy in those jackets!!!

health: hadda speaker...lol we got 2 try on drunk goggles, lol it was soo much fun@

ss: i hava 0% in that class!

algebra: OMG...i have 3 assignments 2marow!!! n they r REALLY hard

science: molly n i r insane!

after school: talked 2 alyssa about um...i dont member...n then told BJ about my party

walked 2 Swansons: didnt havta babysit...so he took me home n my frolicing friend called me!! I LOVE YOU LUCAS!!

ya now im here...bearing the bad news...

sum1: she told _______ thats she was only acting like ur friend
~it sends shocks of pain everytime i read it

later gotta meanting....

love
morgan

ok my day off, didnt really help but hey, it was a good day

morning i got up @ like 8:30 n went online n did sum of the 100000000000000 surveys that erika sent me

then i tooka shower n went 2 my moms work 2 do hw b cuz my mom doesnt hava printer n talked 2 eric

went 2 LaJava n got coffee

Drove all the way 2 Appleton n then all the way 2 Grafton

went 2 the grocery store n i was dacing in the isles lsitening 2 xmas music and sum old lady goes ya i am glad its xmas time agen n im ya me 2 n then i dida cartwheel in the middle of the isle...lol my mom ran 4 her life away from me...lol n it was soo funny!!

then my mom took me 2 Swansons so i could babysit n i made fun of everyone on the bus...but none of em saw me....lol its a long story dont ask

babysat n now i am here

Love
morgan

looken 4 love

i currently have a HUGE secret

Ok i dont regret stayen home b cuz i REALLY needed the break but im sorry

stayen @ home all day talkin 2 my bffs bf IS NOT WUT I CALL FUN!...lol

y did i havta b "sick" on the same day as him?!?!?!

AAHH!

Morgan

My mom says my issues r b cuz i flirt 2 much...im thinkin that mayb...SHE IS INSANE!

Ne ways, im not goin 2 school 2marow...n im not tellin ne1 y

ppl that go 2 my school i will c u on thursday

or talk 2 u 2marow after school

Love ya all!
Morgan

Ok so i am haven a MAJOR MAJOR MAJOR emtional meltdown, havent had a meltdown like this since 7th grade wen erika n i "werent friends ne more"

n so i was talkin 2 my AWESOME friend from TAP....

LUCAS I LOVE YOU SOO MUCH!!!!! U made me feel 130% better!!!! I was so close 2 killing myself n u made me think about ALL the fun times we had 2gether, one i will NEVER 4get is....the ferris wheel n look @ this...

AwesomelyCrazy18 (9:26:38 PM): HEY HERMIE!!!!!!!! GUESS WHAT! I <3>
AwesomelyCrazy18 (9:27:00 PM): YEAH YEAH!!!!! IN THAT FRICKEN HOT SUN , WE WERE HOT ON THAT GOD DAMN FERRIS WHEEL!

ull never 4get either!!!

ur the best!!
LYLAB!!!

Morgan

Y is everyone talkin about love? I wanna b in love, i want sum1 2 love me...:'(

2day wasnt 2 bad...but it was bad

morning: i wanted 2 cry soooo bad

bus stop: got my scarf back, talked 2 alyssa

bus: i sat w/ DJ, she thinks that Eric is an idoit, w/e, n i dont feel NE BETTER DJ but thanx 4 asken tho

school: sat n talked 2 Scott b cuz he accually likes me...as a friend that is...n i told him the one thing that no one has ever knowen about me....its very weird how ive knowen scott 4 3 months and i hated him @ 1st n now he knos sumthin about me that no one else knos

fashion: worked on my snowman n talked w/ everyone else around 2 keep my mind from remembering 3rd hour was coming soon

in between classes: Emily HAD 2 remind me after this class is 3rd hour....

computer: ppl could tell i was in a bad mood,

LA: DUN DUN DUN! @ first i could tell he was avoiding me but after a while we got 2 talking agen, about our families and about uniforms @ SJB

study hall: samm hadda go 2 student services 4 a lil bit,so i waited 4 her, n then the JERKS got back from where ever they were and garrett went 2 the machines and so i quickly almost litterally ran over 2 Ralph 2 ask him a math ?, and then garrett was cuming back so i almost ran away, n then me n Sam gotta table ALL THE WAY ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE COMMONS b cuz i didnt wanna b newhere near him. n he was looking @ her n laughing so she went over there...n she came back n shes like ya i asked him if he was on crack...n then came the water works....O GOD...i was sooo embarressed...i thought i was completely over it

lunch: since Eric wasnt there it felt weird....i was so usta him b in there n everytime i walk by wen i hava ponytail in he would laugh, so it felt weird. Like sumthin was missing, n i didnt eat, i was waaaaaay 2 weirded out by life...i really wish erika went 2 my school b cuz i want her 2 kno wuts wrong

health: talked 2 haley, n um....did sum stuff

ss: OMG...we hadda work on sumthin n since n i sit in front of Cody n OMG..i 4got his name!!!! damn it but ne ways, they were talking about axe and other REALLY good stuff...YUMMY!!!! ooohhhh i couldnt not listen, YUM YUM YUM!

algebra: max came in n sed that alex wanted 2 go back out w/ me, im like um no im not...sorry, n then ya

science: OMG...TIFFANY HUN U GOTTA KEEP IT QUIET!!! im trusting u...

after school: hung out w/ alyssa by her locker n went n talked 2 BJ about wut i wanted 2 tell him....

n then i went 2 the Swanson's n i HATE GARRETT!!! AAHH i cant take it ne more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! erika u kno that offer u made n i turned u down...i rather TAKE IT BACK!...plz plz plz i really want u 2...n not just about that one thing...about just leaving mean alone...ill talkin more about it 2 u privatly

now i am eating pizza n waiting 4 my mom 2 get home so i can pour my heart out

Love
Morgan

Another moody morning will give way to an afternoon of relaxation. You will finally have some control over the situation and are happy to have others benefit from your excellent organizational skills.

CRAP!~! not a good horoscope!!!
A MOODY MORNING?!?!
DAMN!!!!!!!!

o well

i feel sick agen...but i kno wut it is this time

ok so my shoes r side by side right now n i JUST noticed that on the back of it says

EVA + ERIKA =LOVE

LOL

2day in Computer Science we were just screwing around n i was like im goina write everything on my mind...n then i realized that im pretty much screwed til "this thing" blows over. N then i was trien not 2 use pronouns n i was usen full names...it was fun...n it made me cry tho....there is sooooooooo much on my mind

n now i gotta explain it 2 him agen....damn it...

AAHH
Morgan

*sigh*

life sux

this morning i threw up n was really sick but it was prolly the one day outta the WHOLE entire year that i couldnt miss, i was NOT about 2 let erika down...but i think i should rethunk his reaction, its not how i thought it would b, got ready n then went outside n it POURING rain n i HAD 2 look good 2day so i stood in my garage n waited and then the bus came n i hadda hat on n i walked 2 the bus

bus: i really was nervous about 2day

school: i saw brandon n i wanted him 2 just take me away so i could talk 2 him b cuz i can share nething w/ him....*sigh* i still need talk 2 him about that one thing

fashion: it was really akward, i didnt kno wut 2 say 2 ne1...i felt foreign like i didnt belong i was talkin 2 myself n ppl thought i was crazy, @ least jessica was there 2 make me smile

computer: OMG...i am seriously SHRINKING!

language arts: i knew that this was either the last time he would talk 2 me or the last time we would b friends talking....but i gave him gum n kissed away my old life

study hall: THANK GOD! BRANDON N GARRETT WENT 2 THE LIBRARY!! I was soo happy...but i was sooo pissed @ life

lunch: i couldnt get his attention...so i was like damn it....this is the last chance i have 2 talk 2 him n i guess ill just havta tell him over the internet...

health: OMG HALEY ANNOUNCED IT 2 THE WHOLE WORLD! i knew then that i was in trubble

I FINALLY GOT 2 TALK 2 HIM!! I was walking 2 my 7/8 class and he was 4 sum weird reason he was in green pod n i went up 2 him n im like i REALLY need 2 talk 2...n hes like ok shoot, so i told him...n he reacted TOTALLY differnet then i thought he would, cant really say ne more...but...ya

ss: THE CLOCK WAS BROKEN SO I COULDNT TELL WEN I WOULD GET OUTTA THAT HELL HOLE!

algebra: i did pretty good 2day...

science: i saw Eric agen...n he saw me, i was seeing him everywhere by now EVERYONE but me knew wut he sed b cuz i had alyssa do it 4 me...n so im like um ok...n then my Science teacher wanted 2 kno so i told her...shes pretty kewl neways

after school: hung out w/ alyssa by my locker 4 a lil while n almost 4got my phone, me n alyssa were in really bad moods...she was really depressed about "it" n u ppl kno how i am wen it cums 2 ppl being sad...no matter who they rn she REALLY likes my scarf...so since i would c her 1st thing in the morning b4 we even got 2 school i let her wear it 2day...It made her smile, YAY!, i LOVE maken ppl smile...my fav quote is "I wanna b remembered as the girl that made u smile and brightened up your day, even tho she hardly ever smiled n couldnt brighten up her own day"

babysat n then went home,

8 n then im here, gotta work on my english homework, but i have NO ONE 2 email 2 print it off 4 me....b cuz i was goina ask danny

*uuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*

Love
Morgan